New phrase of my life

I haf delayed this entry for like 2 weeks already.. haha.. I officially bidded goodbye to my student-hood and is now proceeding to the next phrase of my life.. ~drum roll~!!! haha.. the ADULTHOOD aka WORKING HOOD??? Welcome to the reality...

I MIA~ed for quite some time le.. coz i am real tired and exhausted... I nv felt like tt b4... i dunno why.. I haf not been sleeping well for the past 2 weeks.. though mentally and physically tired but somehow i keep waking up many times during the night.. sigh.. Am I overwhelmed? or overly stressed? haha..

Well, my job is tough i would say... having a non miltary/NS background... mindef has way too many abbreviations and acroynms tt i am unfamilar wif.. Chim org structure and processes tt i am unclear wif.. etc etc but tell me if there's any job tt is easy??? haha.. I take tt as a learning process.. (i shall learn as i do). Given some time.. i would be able to speak like them (tts my goal).. YAY!! At least I am starting to see the ball coming.. and after hearing and reading alot, i no longer felt so lost as a week ago.. I will get there!!! " The secret of happiness is not in doing wat one likes, but in liking wat one does." I think this is absolutely true!!! And when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

My boss is a nice and understanding person.. he is very smart too (based on my observations)!! my colleagues were great too!!! They were very helpful and nice to me!! hehe.. tts a super plus pt coz a good working environment really makes a diff!!!

Alright.. on the fifth day of work.. boss treated us lunch!! We had subway for lunch and a small cake... tts to celebrate the august "babies" (me included, plus 4 other colleagues --> so many leos ya!! haha) and to welcome me!! hehe.. had a nice chat wif everybody.. we tok about everything under the world.. from boss's daughter incident to sports to food to work related stuff... haha..

Its my birthday!!!

One yr has past!!! Time really flies and I am now 22!!! haha.. Hmm... seems like I juz celebrated my grand 21st bdae few days ago.. Everything tt happened tt day was still so vivid to me... Checked in to NSRCC at around 3 wif dad n kaicheng gor.. dad went back after tt... kc gor and I lax around den be chauffeur... picked up hao first at TP, den went to kc's hse to pick yinghui, peishan sis and uncle.. den picked amanda and head straight to my chalet... We ordered KFC for dinner and had a surprise bdae party for amanda when the clock strike 12... After which we torn for the whole nite... and I am the only one who din sleep at all.. haha.. The first thing when i came down... I saw a big poster of me wif my face on it... It was my large banner.. a gift from my lovely cousins!!! tt was the first surprise.. following tt, the second surprise was my video.. i am so so touched!!! it showed my growing up photos.. some of which made me abit paiseh.. haha.. the guestbook arent surprise coz i somehow knew it b4hand.. tt was an unforgettable event...

Oh.. We went to Bukit Panjang plaza for lunch.. had cartel's set lunch.. was kinda dissapointing.. so far i think onli their pork ribs can make it.... Juehui bought me choc cake from Awfully choc... the 卖相 was really bad I tell u... and this gives its name.. haha.. daddy and mummy both said the same thing when they went to the shop the collect the cake... "Aiyo... if it were me.. when i see e shop and e cake.. i wont feel like buying le lor.." haha... W/o kaicheng gor's recommendations, I wont wan to try it either... BUT!!! it tasted nice!!! choc was thick and not too sweet.. 棒!!! haha..

Thanx to all who rmbed my bdae and wished me... Alright.. I am very tired le.. shall continue tmr or during the weekends about the next phrase of my life..

Well done S'pore

** Drum roll ** Finally, after 48 years... we managed to get a silver medal!!! Well done Lee Jia Wei, Feng Tian Wei and Wang Jia Gu... Although they were abit nervous but they did their best and did us proud...

I watched this 2.5 hrs match till so 心惊胆战 lor!! haha.. Anw, i so feel like smacking the other party lor.. so 嚣张跋扈.. uncivilized!!! Shall not pen down my thots about them.. haha.. dun wanna spoil the mood..

The award presentation ceremony was so heart warming.. only the Singapore gals were hugged when they were presented their Silver medal.. its so nice to see the Singapore 5 stars flag flying!!! clap clap.. :)

Oh btw.. 总理“让球” 让国人专心观赛，全力支持!! This is the first time wor.. PM Lee actually "postpone" his national day speech (Eng) till tmr.. haha.. This shows the Singapore Spirit!! YEAH...

tv holic..

It has been long since i last watched a korean drama.. let me think.. it shld be 3 years since i bid goodbye to my korean dramas.. Recalling during my JC days where I am a super ultimate korean drama fan.. to the extent where I think my whole class called me korean drama queen... esp angeline, xt and christel.. (and this actually made xt's mum thot i am from korea...) haha.. and i am a person who can repeatedly watched the whole drama (of coz skipping the parts tt i dun like) more than thrice and i wont be sicked of it.. call me crazy or wat.. haha.. and usually after the show... my " 失落感" and "无助感" will appear..

After the 3 yrs, I began to switch to tvb series... probably coz 1) I watched too many korean drama liao.. 2) the recent (3yrs ago i mean) ranked excellent and most pop shows seem kinda stupid and so not nice to me.. (to think a tv addict will say tt!! haha) actors not shuai.. plot kinda stupid.. 3) i had completed a whole and wide range of korean dramas.. be it modern or gu zhuang shows ranging.. therefore kinda sianz liao.. haha..

Den i became a tvb fan!! and i am still one now.. wahaha... superb!!! Over these 3 yrs.. i have watched many great productions!! Marvellous... haha.. watching moonlight resonance and when dog loves cat now... (waiting for hk tvb channel to air it daily so tt someone will post it online.. hee)

3 yrs later.. yest.. i juz finished watching one korean drama entitled 1% possibility in 1 and a half day.. wahaha... once again.. my 失落感 resurfaced..

BUT from mon onwards.. i doubt i will haf time watching tvb series and immersing in the storyline liao.. haha.. unless during weekends? coz i am a person who will need to finish the whole show asap de.. otherwise i wont be able to concentrate on the work i am doing.. and will keep day dreaming about the plots.. and I need a week to heal my 失落感.. wahaha.. luckily i got self discipline.. haha.. i forbid myself from watching the many shows tt i yearned to during sch days. coz once start, i cant stop.. but if i nv start, den i wont 追...

Pre Bdae treat...

Daddy treated us to Grand Hyatt hotel's Straits Kitchen for a quite ex buffet lunch.. advance celebration for my 22nd birthday.. hehe.. (and coincidentally.. today is my lunar's bdae).. They served a wide variety of food.. from the local chinese delicacies like popiah, black pepper prawns, carrot cake, duck, laksa, prawn mee etc to indian food like prata, curry, tandorri chicken etc and malay food like satay, sambal stingray, otah etc to many snacks and deserts like muah chi, onah onah, rojak, many noya kuehs , long xu tang and ice cream etc etc.. too many to list them all out.. haha.. it is one of the most spacious wif the most variety of food tt i haf seen so far.. (for buffet wise).. BUT i muz admit tt i din eat alot today!! haha... but I definetely ate more than usual.. haha.. I would rate it 7/10.. haha.. The place is cosy and nicely decorated BUT it was too crowded and noisy le.. wif many pple wearing tees.. (2 less popcorns for tt).. haha.. coz i would prefer a quiet, cosy and nice ambience place wif great food of course.. haha..

Oh btw.. yeah!!! After 48 years, Singapore's table tennis team managed to beat their way into the finals... we are gg to get an Olympics medal.. be it Gold or silver.. Congrats!!! Tmr is the defining round... jia you Singapore..

happy :)

Finally, I got the call tt i haf been waiting for!!! A sigh of relief!!! haha.. I haf sucessfully crossed all the hurdles.. wahaha.. 苦尽甘来! cheers.. and at least for now.. i can say tt i din regret rejecting the other offer!!! haha..

thanx to all who stand by me... comfort me.. listen to my grumbles and complains.. and analyze the pros and cons wif me.. esp my family members.. cousins.. xiuting, emily, angeline, yiling, peiyee and kala..

oh btw.. who got any nice and cheap non camera phone to recommend???

Studio shoots

Went to Portrait gallery @ river valley rd to take my graduation photo wif family and grandma.. brought my props along of coz.. haha.. erm.. we haf been to many studios to look see look see.. decided on Portrait Gallery coz we think this looks good!!! though its ex compared to the other studio.. as in coz we like their backdrop.. the poses and this studio's professional photographer won many awards wor.. the photographer is very funny de.. he attempted to make my granny smile but in e end when my granny smile.. his actions made me, mummy and xiaomei really SMILE or I shld say laugh so so bubbly.. wahaha.. took individual shoots, family shoots and another family shoots wif granny.. daddy wore academic dress too.. haha.. Overall, i think Portrait gallery is not bad.. as least for now.. (haven seen the photos and all yet mah).. haha.。

Den we went to Paragon's ding tai feng for late lunch.. juz wanna say tt their new specialty chilly crab xiao long bao is so not nice lor!!! haha

Happy birthday Singapore

Singapore.. Happy 43th birthday!!!

A country I am proud to call my home.. City of possibilities, home for all.. May our nation continue to prosper!!

Will be gg for a bbq later.. to celebrate national day? haha.. no lah.. celebrating wan xuan's bdae..

08/08/2008: Beijing Olympics 2008 officially starts!!! The opening was grand.. (directed by zhang yi mou).. oh btw.. since many ang mo will fly to beijing to view this spectacular moment and the subsequent sports event.. many of the china restaurants decided to make a translation for their menu.. guess wat??? 童子鸡 was actually translated as chicken without sexual life!!! oh man.. hilarious sia.. and they made many more jokes... haha

一波未平，一波又起。。。

好烦啊！！今天是第五天了。。 等待真的是一种煎熬。。 我等到花儿也谢了。。这五天对我而言是非常漫长的五天。。 我都快疯了。。 等到脖子也长了。。我每过一会儿。。 都会不由自足的查看手机是否有missed calls.. 尤其是今天。。手机整天都与我形影不离。。因为我有一种很强烈的预感。。 觉得今天会有消息。。 但还是失望而空。。 到了 4。45pm，我忍无可忍了。。 播了通电话给他们。。 他们还没得知结果。。 小妹说。。no news means good news... 虽然我是赞同。。 但深陷这处境的我。。受不了这种“酷刑”。。 总是无法平静下来。。 心中除了担心还是担心。。忐忑不安。。七上八下。。 以致我这几天失眠了。。

人生不如意的事情十之八九。。 但我的人生为什么那么不一帆风顺？是我太过杞人忧天.. 顾虑太多了吗？还是我太执著， 太过于强求了呢？又或者这是我的性格。。 担心太多了， 再加上我是个完美主义者，对我自己的要求和期望特别高。。 除此之外，我也是一个很在我形象的人。。 很在乎别人的眼光。。 另外， 生性易担心的我。。 　每当碰到事情的时侯，我都会担心害怕好一阵子。。这一切的一切。。 把握压得快喘不过气来了。。 有时候还真羡慕那些能一笑置之，闭上双眼，呼呼大睡， 把天塌下来当被盖的人。他们总是能那么无忧无虑。。 没有烦恼。。有时候我也尝试想这样“放任”自己，但我总是不能把烦恼抛到九霄云外。我会不由自足地想起。。好不容易在众多人当中过了那么多关，希望不要在是最后的一刻让我失望！我是否能脱颖而出呢？答案就在下个礼拜揭晓。。 我好期待。。。

这短短的几个月。。 对我来说简直是度日如年。。 每天活在担心紧张中。。 寄了超多比例表出去，但没人打来。每天翻开报纸，察看网站。。看看那些工作我有兴趣。。 慢慢地，我开始彷徨了，不知道还有什么是我有兴趣的。。也慢慢地没看到我心仪的工作。。没人打来时，我很心烦。。 每当电话响起时， 我也害怕紧张了。。 因为我最怕的面试要到来了。。 就这样。。 到了七月。。 运气变好了。。去了一个公司的第二次面试。。 几天后就被入取了。而这时，又有另外一份我心心念念的工作“接受”我。。 但他们还需要我去身体检查和 security test 后才能接受我。。 天啊！ 这是多么难决定的事。。。反复思考后，决定要接受后者。。考虑的因素有很多，就不在这详谈了。打给他们 reject 时，我是多么地不好意识。。 他们的 HR manager 还亲自打给我，要我再考虑。。我就是一个这样的人，往往什么事都想要面面俱到。。但现实生活中，哪会有面面俱到的场面的。。决择再难，还是要选择。。and it always involves opportunity cost.. 我唯有希望一切完美！一切顺顺利利就好！

Super pissed

Today, i did something very stupid.. i am too honest to the extend tt i feel like slapping myself. Is honesty the best policy?? Juz give me a knife.. Hope everything will still run smoothly otherwise i will really go and bang onto the wall sia!!!! sigh sigh and sighs!!!!! I muz be mad.. super pissed off wif myself.. dun wish to talk about it anymore!!! faints.. praying real hard now.. The waiting process is tortorous and tedious...

Went to Chinatown's ten dollar club Ktv wif xiuting and angeline.. damn cheap sia... compared to kbox.. we sang from 2 to 7.. and its around 12 bucks onli.. wif 2 tibits.. 1 bowl of sharkfin and free flow of drinks lor.. kbox de super ex lor... so not worth!! Shall go to the chinatown one next time.. hee..

Oh btw.. Amanda.. Happy 16th birthday.. haha

Cousins first kbox outing

Had dinner at the Kopitiam beside hougang plaza.. The lunch was bad!!! saltish and not nice at all... sigh sigh.. After tt, we went to hougang plaza's kbox from 2 to 7pm.. gathering cum celebrating amanda's bdae.. Was fun and enjoyable.. and there's one moment where we were quite high!!! stand up to sing the high pitch ah mei's ting hai twice!!! din check if the glass did shatter... wahaha.. snap afew pics (shall post it up when amanda sent it to me), sang bdae song and cut the choc mint cake (cake was so so) at around 5.. left at around 7.15pm.. Met yinghui and we headed towards Bliss cafe (beside Punggol Park) for dinner.. Ambience was not bad.. food serving was slow though.. Food was not bad.. esp Gritton chicken and the boneless chicken chop.. those 2 were quite nice!! I had bacon pasta in spicy aligo olio sauce.. so so onli.. As usual, we shared our foodie.. hehe.. left the place at around 9.40pm.. tt marks the end of our outing.. haha.. So fun!!! hope to meet them up more often.... grins..